Earlier this year there was a change in political hands I was reading the news at every turn. I already was awake suffering from anxiety from everything I had to do for my family (dad's estate, mom's situation, my brother's situation, my kids situation, and wait...I guess MY situation) so what else should I do?

So I would blast Apple music (which is AWESOME btw....) and have the news on in the background, read news on the internet...whatever news "fake or real"...I guess i was getting my dose. I hadn't started this blog so I didn't have an outlet anywhere else after going on Facebook and making myself hungry with the recipe ideas....but I digress.

When I think of the President of the United States I think that is one of the hardest, one of the most amazing, but one of the most thankless jobs in the world. You are privy to political and world secrets that you usually aren't able to share with anyone else except those in power. You are privy to knowing and being briefed on some good but mostly terrible things in the world...and you have to make decisions for everyone else and there is no chance in hell that everyone is going to be happy. And those decisions have financial repercussions and affect the lives of billions of people...domestically and GLOBALLY!!! No pressure right?

But, SOMEONE has to do it. No country can be leaderless.

So when someone steps up to this indescribable plate of responsibility as a citizen I hope and pray that, like a good parent, that they will do their job and do the best they can for everyone in their family.

We look to our parents for direction in life....we ideally should be able to look up to them as examples of what we'd like to be. When I looked at the Obama family, that is how I felt. You're handed a plate - a mixture of great things and also a mess and agendas from decades and histories past and asked to clean it up. And you do it the best you can and with a smile.

When I think of our current political situation I am baffled. I had hoped that our lives would be better and that we would look to our president as a symbol of who we look up to, who we want to be, who we look to for guidance and hope in a world is failing in so many ways. War, poverty, unnecessary hatred and brutality (to name just a sad few), brainwashing, mutilation of women...a never-ending list.... I don't feel this is the case

I feel that when I look upon my life and my legacy...I would want my actions to be as honorable as possible. Could I and do I have regrets of specific actions...of course.. I am human. But I hope that when I look back on my life, on my decisions and choices that it won't be about being right or wrong. But I hope that I will have acted the best I could with the information I had at the time, with the knowledge and basis of my experiences and ethics, and with not only myself but others in my consideration.